I recently had the privilege of being photographed by Courtney Lindberg for bodyheart - a campaign started by Amber Krzys, who I met when we both spoke on a panel at WonderCon.
Amber told me to show up however I wanted, wearing whatever made me feel beautiful. I decided to use this opportunity to embrace my past fears and show myself exactly as I am - no hair/makeup, wearing my favorite old shirt that has been with me for over 15 years (through all the manifestations of my body shapes + sizes). I didn’t even shave my legs or pluck my eyebrows.
Diving a little further into vulnerability, I also chose to photograph the body part that used to give me so many issues - my stomach. Whenever I eat (I didn’t until after this shoot) my tummy always sticks out, no matter how many sit ups or pilates sessions I do. When I was heavier, people often mistook me for being pregnant. And after years of trying to have children and being unable to, my stomach became another reminder of how I thought my body had “betrayed me.”
I have since learned to embrace not only my forever-bloated belly, but my infertility.
Looking at these photographs, I am really proud of who I have become, and how things that once caused so much suffering can truly be beautiful. If you want to take part of the bodyheart campaign, visit the site and please share if you do!